Wednesday, March 30, 2005
im packing my bags, leaving.i am nadi; :] at 11:51 PM
Saturday, March 26, 2005
tempted to touch.and too tired to do anything else.
i am nadi; :] at 12:29 AM
Thursday, March 24, 2005
oh by the way, im not that much of a pessimistic bugger.its just one of those days. *shrugs
i am nadi; :] at 2:47 AM
there comes a point in life where words really dont mean a thing and actions are just actions. it doesnt matter how hard you try, the effort you put in, the heartbreak you go through, at the end of the day, its not what youve done, but its what other people get in return. thats the exterior of the situation, the general understanding and the reality of situations which involves 2 parties.but does what you yourself think actually matter? correction. does what you think matter to other people? hell no. cos at the end of the day, everyones a selfish bitch, including myself. but this selfless act of mine results in me drowning in my own disappointment. i hate that word.
ive been proven right, that im nothing but a big disappointment. i dont know why i was hanging on to that little hope (for the fear of disappointment) only to be a real diasappointment in the end. a bigger one for that matter. let me tell you guys, this can be replayed over and over and over again in different matters/parts of my life. be it friends, family, and whichever part of life lah there is left. not going to bangkok, biggest disappointment, major project, another huge disappointment, even falling for the wrong bloody guy has led me to my own disappointment.
i mean seriously, am i that much of a failure? im not trying to seek sympathy from others by writing this entry, but really, i cant stop questioning myself.
so cheers to me and disappointment.
i am nadi; :] at 2:23 AM
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
today, i had scones and wore a knitted yellow sweater.i cleaned half my room and got distracted before starting on the other half.
i saw my favourite boy, and drank a mango freeze.
tomorrow, i feel like brownies :)
oh oh oh. and i think i wanna get a new phone. hee.
i am nadi; :] at 12:30 AM
Monday, March 21, 2005
mixed feelings.i am nadi; :] at 12:30 AM
Friday, March 18, 2005
what the hell... i hate it when this happens. just typed a really really long entry, and bloody blogger had to eat it up. guess it wasnt meant to be shared. heh.ok lah. not bad lah. cos it was something embarassingly stupid.
i am nadi; :] at 11:44 PM
Thursday, March 17, 2005
im afraid id say the wrong things to you at times. im afraid that my reasoning would seem like a biased judgement against your situation. but sometimes, i guess i gotta push those thoughts aside.sigh.
your actions are makin me judge you in a way which i never thought i would. i dont know why u said such things, but i dont think you realise the worth of what youre losing.
i am nadi; :] at 11:54 PM
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
get out of my face. seriously. please please please, oh pretty please, just go away.i am nadi; :] at 11:25 PM
get out of my face. seriously. please please please, oh please just go away.i am nadi; :] at 11:25 PM
i have a tendency of keeping things cooped up in me. i know its unhealthy, (and sometimes having a blog doesnt help, really) but some things are just not meant to be said. or at least not until i find the right words that is.in the meantime, i miss my k-yee :(
can we please do breakfast soon? oh pretty please.
i am nadi; :] at 11:14 AM
visual literacy has turned me into a visual illiterate.i hate wasting my time on electives.
i am nadi; :] at 4:30 AM
i dont see the point of doing something good only to end up with a fucked up feeling adding up to the bad turnout. its happened one too many times to me and im getting pretty immune to that fucked up feeling of having to swallow and accept everything as it comes.seriously, sometimes i should just stop bothering.
maybe i should.
and i should start now.
i am nadi; :] at 4:18 AM
Monday, March 14, 2005
i pray for someone like you.i am nadi; :] at 11:38 PM
Sunday, March 13, 2005
im bored.gimme some work to do.
i am nadi; :] at 4:15 AM
Saturday, March 12, 2005
and so its over.after a 15hr sleep, i woke up and realised, whee. its over.
alhamdulillah.
many many many many mannnnnny thanks to especially win, who never fails to be there ;) (yes i owe u BIIIIG time dear.) rishi, part of the brain for my concept, and wei min, for your last min help-out. wouldnt have made it without you guys. much <3.
and to those who were in the same boat as i, heads up.
its time to parteh :)
i am nadi; :] at 2:00 PM
im through with this.its over between us.
i am nadi; :] at 1:56 PM
Monday, March 07, 2005
i hate this.five more days.
i am nadi; :] at 12:21 AM
Sunday, March 06, 2005
you know i miss you too :)i am nadi; :] at 12:48 AM
Saturday, March 05, 2005
my plan was to take a short nap at about 3 am last night, and guess what happened. the short nap became a whooping 9-hour sleep. so much for staying up and doing work. cos of that, im a bit behind schedule and ive decided that i shant work at tq tom night. but i guess the sleep did me some good. now i can smile :)cos my moods have been taking me on madrollercoaster rides.
i am nadi; :] at 3:30 PM
its that time of the month.im tired, im sleepy, im moody (like daaaamn moody), im drained to bits.
mentally. emotionally. physically.
apologies to those ive snapped at.
i am nadi; :] at 1:29 AM
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
there shouldnt be comparison in friendship.so cut the vietnam shit, cut the sidewalk shit. ive stood up enough for both sides and the least u guys could do is to stop comparing. really. cos if u think that those little meaningless words dont hurt me, well youre hell wrong, they do. and im sick and tired of it.
sorry if im being too harsh, but i really wanna put this across.
cos your friendships mean the world to me.
i am nadi; :] at 11:36 PM
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
ok. i just got rid of the previous entry cos it was bugging me to much. haha. who was i kidding. blogging in my second lang? hah.sorry bout that win ;)
maybe next time.
i am nadi; :] at 12:52 AM