Monday, April 25, 2005

i have no right or say in this matter, but i have feelings, i do. you may not know this (but maaaybe, yes just maybe youve guessed it or felt it already) but im starting to get too affected by, errrmm... certain issues, waaay more than im supposed to. and its getting on my nerves. I'M getting on my nerves. stop it. stop it. but how?

this stupid blog is about as good as being non-existant. cant seem to find the words to type (even though theyre swimming ard in this little mind of mine) or the heart to actually type those words out. im starting to prefer to keep certain things cooped up in my head and suffer in bits of pain and anger of my self-inflicted stupidity. i cant resist the cruel sensations of a broken heart, which refuses to find that piece of band-aid to reduce the pain and release the anger.

i am nadi; :] at 1:36 AM


Wednesday, April 13, 2005

the world is coming to an end. and hell am i not prepared for it. (even though ive got 'straight to hell' written on my forehead). there are things to look back at and ponder upon, wrongs to make right, words to be said, and feelings that have yet to be felt. a new world (the working world) to be explored, memories to be cherished, and loved ones to be loved even more. and ive got myself to find.

are you ready for it? im not.

i am nadi; :] at 11:54 PM


Sunday, April 10, 2005

its been some time since my last entry. been too caught up with... stuff i guess. finally got my dreaded results. and erk. i dont like. grades fell big time. i mean i passed, managed to get my arse outta school, and to.. nowhere. yep. those Ds arent getting me anywhere for sure.

Ks heading for another expedition tom. i wanna go :(

spend all your time
waiting for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distractionoh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be emptyand weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

favourite? you know?

i am nadi; :] at 1:46 AM