Sunday, July 31, 2005

so i found out the meaning of love. it makes you smile. its makes you cry.

i love tongseng. it makes me smile. and it makes me cry (and sweat sometimes. from the chilli padi).


i love you. cos you make me smile. and you make me cry (not referring to any yous in particular, in case youre wondering).

actually why did i even say that (ooo... someone's being all brave tonight. oooo... ah fuck it lah. who cares.).

i am nadi; :] at 12:55 AM


Friday, July 29, 2005

no apologies i guess.


there's no talk about death thats left incomplete without you.
its been 4 years.

we still miss you.

i am nadi; :] at 10:41 PM


found it.

ok lets make love.

i am nadi; :] at 1:12 PM


i think ive stopped believeing in love.

cos to me, love, is just love.

theres nothing more to it.
(i know 3/4 of the population out there will most prob resent to this)

maybe cos i kinda forgot what its like. maybe this is love. im not too sure myself. what the hell does that bloody word mean anyway. good lord.

i'll go check it out.

i am nadi; :] at 1:04 PM


Thursday, July 28, 2005

i spent the whole day at work.

i know, what a way to spend today :/

but thank you perks.
(for breakfast, lunch, dinner, and of course, the company)

i am nadi; :] at 12:07 AM


Wednesday, July 27, 2005

last few minutes.

happy twentienth me.

(sometimes, you always end up comforting yourself)

i am nadi; :] at 11:58 PM


Tuesday, July 26, 2005

feeling lonely these days.

maybe its the weather.

its just like us.

i am nadi; :] at 5:38 PM


Monday, July 25, 2005

schools starting to be a drag. i mean it has always been ah. but its getting to me. one more month, one more month.

felt like typing an entry. but the minds blank. just one of those plainless nights.

when you breathe, i wanna be the air for you.

i love bon jovi.

i am nadi; :] at 3:03 AM


Sunday, July 24, 2005

zikry, sarah and yasmin (who talks too much for her own good).

kids are getting smarter these days.

they all talk better than people like us loh.

i am nadi; :] at 3:23 AM


Saturday, July 23, 2005

i was all prepared to type a wordy post abt issues and issues, until someone sent me the link in the previous post. try it. click it. then you'll hate eugene just like i do.


im not really in the mood for next week. i hope it stays as this week. even though next week is just a weekend away. so this week, stay while you can. cos with this much things going, i dont think next week will be the kind of week i'd like it to be.


there's not much to say to you these days. i like the silent apprehension.

i am nadi; :] at 2:28 AM


i hate eugene.

i am nadi; :] at 12:12 AM


HATE, is a strong word.
and so is LOVE, my dear.
HATE. means one thing.
LOVE, means a thing or two more than one.

i am nadi; :] at 12:03 AM


Friday, July 22, 2005

is it that hard to get some peace in this world?

mandy moore said (in a walk to remember. hehe.),
"without sufferings, there wont be compassion".


i am nadi; :] at 1:28 AM


Thursday, July 21, 2005

youve left me in desire with ultimate cravings. ive never felt this way about food before. im amazed by how such a simple dish of sliced fish in a milk broth can drive people to deranged levels of unsoundness. tongsengers, you have to profess. fish soup can bring us to a whole new dimension.

(i can feel myself drool already)

the sweat. the screams. the chilli. the padi. the tahu. the tomat (thats how indons pronounce tomatoes i think. my maid does it all the time). the sayur. the sea. the weed. and of course the ikan. and the goreng. the smoke from neighbouring tables, and the view of erm, yah, bugis junction, makes the tongseng experience all the more worthwhile.

i want to tongseng some more. tongseng tongseng till i die.

i am nadi; :] at 11:57 AM


Tuesday, July 19, 2005

anger and hysteria are signals of unmet needs.

chafe to the ears, or eyes in this context, but undoubtedly true.

so meet my needs.

i am nadi; :] at 8:30 PM


Monday, July 18, 2005

i took that walk in the rain today =)

through the trees. with the cold air breathing against my skin.

i had some company, till he decided to run off for the shelter.

it was nice.
and so we talked. i enjoyed it. one of those simple moments of doing nothings that you'll treasure. i love doing nothings with you.

it made me feel better. thanks babe =)

i am nadi; :] at 8:22 PM


Sunday, July 17, 2005

I've learned-that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.
I've learned-that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
I've learned-that true friendship continues togrow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.
I've learned- that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.
I've learned-that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.
I've learned-that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the lasttime you see them.
I've learned - that you can keep going long after you can't.
I've learned-that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.
I've learned- that either you control your attitude or it controls you.
I've learned-that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.
I've learned-that money is a lousy way of keeping score.
I've learned-that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.
I've learned-sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down, will be the ones to help you get back up.
I've learned-that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
I've learned-that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
I've learned-that maturity has more to do withwhat types of experience you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.
I've learned-that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn toforgive yourself.
I've learned-that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.
I've learned-that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.
I've learned-that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.
I've learned-that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.
I've learned-that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.
I've learned-that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.
I've learned-that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.
I've learned-that the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.

i am nadi; :] at 9:47 PM



(that was me, breaking)

i am nadi; :] at 8:19 PM


i wanna take that lonely walk in the rain and think about an awful lot of nothings. maybe after, i'll be in solace.

but maybe having company would be nice.


i am nadi; :] at 3:30 PM


ive been bottling it up too much i just cant take it anymore. take me elsewhere, please.

i am nadi; :] at 12:49 AM


its depression. depression depression. i cant control the torture i torment myself with for nuts. ending up in distress whenever i get an overload of perturb thoughts. stifling heart. wrecked mind. i admit. its my own game. i wanna just break through and advance the exit. which ive been probing on for years.
im sick of having to go through this. im fucking sick.

i am nadi; :] at 12:12 AM


Friday, July 15, 2005

theyre taking you away from me :(

i am nadi; :] at 2:08 PM


Thursday, July 14, 2005

have i ever told you about mandy?

i am nadi; :] at 2:08 PM


ive been thinking a lot these days. what about im not very sure. but whatever it is, im thriving by it. its been a fervent week. much has been said and taken aback. life in melodrama with the zealous ramblings of the other.

so, to the impassive, i say, screw you lah.

i am nadi; :] at 1:32 PM


i made yous tags =)


i am nadi; :] at 2:45 AM


Wednesday, July 13, 2005

graduation tom. NOT looking forward to it.


chin up babe. im here for ya.

i need to shop.
in bangkok.

i am nadi; :] at 11:51 PM


Tuesday, July 12, 2005

what if...



i am nadi; :] at 10:39 PM


Monday, July 11, 2005

so u think deep aye? lets see who goes deeper yah. let me just tell you that ive sunk all the way down. and hell yea, its deep. i could see you wading above me. grrr.

i am nadi; :] at 2:31 AM


you know kelly, ive been thinking about you a lot lately.


no lekor. no dunkins. got the company. the pictas. the fun.

oh oh oh. and wrinkled wet feet. ew.

i am nadi; :] at 1:52 AM


Saturday, July 09, 2005

i wanna dance to 'The Wonders' on my wedding day.

i am nadi; :] at 12:43 AM


Friday, July 08, 2005

build my world around you and i want you to know.
i need you like ive never needed anyone before.

and so lifehouse did play.

i cried.

i miss you.

i am nadi; :] at 3:48 AM


I tried to smile so the hurt won't show.
Tell everybody I was glad to see you go.
But the tears just won't go away
Loneliness found me.
Looks like it's here to stay.
I know that I ought to find someone new.
But all I find is myself always thinkin' of you.

im sorry, im an emo extremist.

i am nadi; :] at 2:52 AM


i need someone to love me.

i am nadi; :] at 1:23 AM


the flood doors are opened. there's no turning back now.

kelly, i need you =( you have no idea how much.

bring back the art room gang. it'll make things all good for now. play me lifehouse. perfection without a doubt. im missing it too much.

kelly. please, really soon. perks. thanks buddy ol' pal. really. dee. were in this together. nad. i need you too. that goes to you too hantu. rish. hurry home. sel. need i say more? win. stay, please.

i am nadi; :] at 12:30 AM


moments like this...

i'd never let go.

i am nadi; :] at 12:20 AM


Thursday, July 07, 2005

my dear, not everyone gets it easy in life. its unfair. patience. virtue. trust me. it'll come.

cos i'm waiting for it too.

i am nadi; :] at 1:56 AM


you make me wonder sometimes, why is it that some things which are meant to be, arent what theyre supposed to be.

i am nadi; :] at 1:45 AM


Wednesday, July 06, 2005

stupid cow.

i am nadi; :] at 1:54 AM


someone told me, "now is a good time for terrorists to bomb singapore".

yah with all the important people coming over for the ioc, sure. why not ;p

i am nadi; :] at 12:40 AM


Monday, July 04, 2005

ive got a problem expressing myself. i either hide myself so darn well, or pounce on you like a mad lion.

i am nadi; :] at 10:06 PM


i miss hun 1 and hantu. i wanna tong seng soon. please ah =(

nak makan sop ikan lah.

i am nadi; :] at 10:03 PM


Sunday, July 03, 2005

kelly =( u made me sad.
sel =( u made me sad too.

now i wanna cry all over again =(

i am nadi; :] at 7:48 PM


so many things i wanna do. so little time. so little money =(

i wanna cook.
i wanna go for naan and cheyken tikka at little india.
i wanna walk through sungai road and find something i'll keep for years.
i wanna chill at starbucks. cos i havent done that in ages. and just talk cock.
i wanna go for breakfast with sel or K. cos i havent done that in ages too.
i wanna go flea market and hope to shop my ass off.
i wanna go for expensive pastries and ice cream.
i wanna buy a book. cos i havent done that in ages too too.
i wanna go to bangkok. cos i havent done that. at all.
i wanna go cambodia. cos ive been wanting to for ages.
i wanna go back to vietnam. cos life was much simpler then.
i wanna sleep ah. cos got nothing to do mah.

mah mah mah.

i am nadi; :] at 6:56 PM


Friday, July 01, 2005


finally got the printer fixed. makes a lot of things a lot easier.

the worlds unjust. especially when it comes to you. a selfless act of dispute. spare me the sorrows, please.

i adore you to bits lil one. have fun seeing the birdies fly.

i adore you more o'crazy one =)

dee says she needs my birthday list. i say, surprise me. and that goes to the rest of yous.(im sorry, but if you havent known me enough, im never modest when it comes to this. keeps me young-gah) .

oh. im broke.

i am nadi; :] at 10:55 AM