Wednesday, September 28, 2005

woe. i can feel my air-pipe swell. im choking on my own oesaphagus. and its knocking the doors in my head. but noone seems to be answering.


goodnight. i need the rest.

i am nadi; :] at 12:40 AM


Monday, September 26, 2005

one trip. one year back. one change.

one trip. one year later.

babe please dont do this to me.

i am nadi; :] at 9:09 PM


back home.

back to life.

back to normality.

i am nadi; :] at 8:54 PM


Thursday, September 15, 2005


back next week.

i am nadi; :] at 11:41 PM


its not easy for me. maybe you should be a little more considerate.

it saddens me that you dont seem to spare a thought sometimes.

i am nadi; :] at 12:56 AM


Tuesday, September 13, 2005

deny thy father and refuse thy name.
for i shall not be, but sworn, my love.

what's in a name?

it's nor hand nor mouth, nor any other part, belonging to a man.

i am nadi; :] at 8:00 PM


Monday, September 12, 2005

gordo, is gorgeous. cohen, lagi gorgeous. you, my tak boleh tahan gorgeous.

i am nadi; :] at 12:52 AM


i had a dream last night. made my backbone rattle. felt the possibilty of it turning to reality. and its makin my bones rattle even more.


i am nadi; :] at 12:27 AM


Saturday, September 10, 2005

its been a long time since ive had sleepless nights of unwanted cries. those times when everything just seems to hit you bad. those times when good things seems bad. bad things seem worse. and the horrible, just go beyond emotional control. it used to be pleasureable pain. mistaken screams of laughter, of joy. its harder to come by now, but when it does, like how it did, its a wider vision of what is interpreted as, emo-ism. its not just feelings anymore. its the mind. controlling over whats already mine, my physical form. im a bluff to myself. to whats around me.

but i can handle it.

yes, i can handle it.

i am nadi; :] at 12:48 AM


why are ciggies so expensive =(


i am nadi; :] at 12:42 AM


Friday, September 09, 2005

i miss you.

i am nadi; :] at 12:50 PM


need to get certain stuff off my mind. keep them in my back pocket where it should be.

sel my dear, stop being such a worker and get your ass down town for a date with me and perkie. it'll be worth it. i promise =) hurry hurry, before i get stuck on a desk from 9-6 (like you).

i am nadi; :] at 2:23 AM


did I disappoint you or let you down?
should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
so I took what's mine by eternal right.
took your soul out into the night.
it may be over but it won't stop there,
i am here for you if you'd only care.
you touched my heart you touched my soul.
you changed my life and all my goals.
and love is blind and that I knew when,
my heart was blinded by you.
i've kissed your lips and held your head.
shared your dreams and shared your bed.
i know you well, I know your smell.
i've been addicted to you.

i am a dreamer but when I wake,
you can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
and as you move on, remember me,
remember us and all we used to be
i've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
i've watched you sleeping for a while.
i'd spend a lifetime with you.
i know your fears and you know mine.
we've had our doubts but now we're fine,
and I love you, I swear that's true.
i cannot live without you.

goodbye my lover,
goodbye my friend.

you have been the one, you have been the one for me.

im addicted to you, james. james blunt.

i am nadi; :] at 2:03 AM


Thursday, September 08, 2005

deny thy father, and refuse thy name. for i shall not be, but sworn my love.

what's in a name?

i wanna learn shakespear all over again.


abcdefghij lmnopqrstuvwxyz.

wheres my missing letter?

i miss dee =(

i am nadi; :] at 10:56 PM


had dinner to celebrate my 'im friggin done with tp' day. actually, we only came up with the celebration after dinner. needed a reason for dinner, and i dont think pipit's birthday is a good enough reason. hardy har.

ever been in a group of 5 where each person was suffering from the excess sugar intake from iskandar's apple crumble with extra crumble and extra base and extra extra everything?

woe. it was domestic kewlness.

i am nadi; :] at 12:40 PM


the cousins a great company.

lets mambo again.

beat ah, next time we wear green gren same same twist twist again ar. isk ah. next time i'll go as a guy so you dont have to pay so much. i'll make sofi go as a guy too.

my goodness. i did mambo in my sleep. im not kidding you guys.

i am nadi; :] at 12:30 PM


Tuesday, September 06, 2005

it irritates me that he does that to you. im keeping my cool chilled and frozen, but if it happens again.... im gonna get so pissed that i'll shove the snow up his scrony arse.

i am nadi; :] at 2:29 PM


goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend.

i am nadi; :] at 2:04 AM


Sunday, September 04, 2005


is like a door.

you have people walking. in and out. the old ones. the new ones. the familiar ones. there are those that visit. for coffee. or stay. for the weekend. but those that knock. they usually end up. part of the family. but sometimes. you come across the wrong door. only to find yourself. back to where you were. in the comfort of your own surroundings. your own home. and that is when. you yearn for. a door to knock on. to visit for coffee. or stay for the weekend. or a family to be part of.

ive got a family which im part of. visits for the weekend, and coffee. but. those wrong doors that ive knocked...

i was typing the above when i got struck by a brain freeze. couldnt continue cos i dont exactly know what it was that i wanted to say.i mean i knew, when i started typing it. but as i went along, i kinda forgot, if i was making any sense in the first place. now i just... have nothing to say.


sel : coffee next week or something? i need updates about 9-6.
sidewalk : tongseng lah. wahlau.
perks : u bruised me. i swear there's a red singarpoorah on my arm. and i can see you waving from bedok.
win : youre the sweetest lah. thank you.
emah (if youre reading this that is...) : sigh. i miss you k.

i am nadi; :] at 1:15 AM