Monday, October 30, 2006

random lomoness.

wisma with some of the girls.

tokyo with wan.

STA with pople who love big money.


the other.

i am nadi; :] at 11:14 PM


pictures from the past few days!!!

i seem to be having problems uploading my pictures as per one entry, so i apologise for the organised mess i have made. it annoys me quite a bit that i have to post my pictures in seperate entries, but whatever okay.

this computer thinggy is a really bad habit cos it keeps me awake no matter how sleepy i am. ok well not all the time, but most of the time. on working nights its fine, but nights like this?! 45 minutes ago, i was sitting in front of my tv with my eyes half closed, so i dragged myself to my room, and realised that i left my computer on. so i went over to switch it off (that was the plan people, that was the plan), but ended up going through my pictures, and now this.

my eyes are sore again. now i shall really try to sleep.

6 more days to UK.

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Sunday, October 29, 2006

they sky hasn't had a good rain for a good couple of weeks, till today. i woke up in the midst of nothing in my head, stared out the window from my bed, laptop on.. well my lap, and watched the sky turn from its midnight blue to what it is now (its really an ugly shade of grey cos it raining, but play along with me here).

for a good ten minutes, i was dancing in my own psuedo world, pit pat patter patter like theres nothing else to be cared about today. sometimes, i forget this feeling cos life is so mundane. but twice a year (haha ok maybe more), i fly back to wonderland and pour myself a cup of tea with jimminy, and we'll have our tete-et-tete sessions over sweet pudding and pie. and then a walk in the woods with handsome robin hand in hand, song in mind, and really just nothing less. everything that seems so melancholichly sweet you can imagine till i once again spin the wheel, and the spindle hits me back to sleep, and i wake up again to my own room, and an unwanted reality.

this is my lovestory. keep up with me ;)

i am nadi; :] at 12:10 PM


Saturday, October 28, 2006

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Thursday, October 26, 2006

my bloody laptop cant read my damn camera. just when i was in the mood for pictures.

selamat hari raya, maaf zahir dan batin kepada semua yang memahami.

ive got pictures from the party and raya dued.

i am nadi; :] at 1:42 AM


Wednesday, October 18, 2006

i think its abt time i took up some lessons in animation.

thought for today.

i hope it survives.

i am nadi; :] at 2:51 PM


ever had a bad dream while youre awake?

well well, as if you dont already know whats gonna come next, it just happened to me. my own nightmare woke me up from my saturated stoning, and hell boy did i get a scare. cept i dont remember what scared me.

mut be the morning sickness ive been getting these days.

well good morning to you anyway. i think i shall stone a litlle more, once or twice, and trip myself to sleep.

i am nadi; :] at 6:56 AM


Monday, October 16, 2006

that one night of precious sleep didnt do me much good i guess. its back to late nights and early mornings, no stops in between, in fact, sleep has long be gone. be gone now, be gone. im so used to not sleeping that now when i do, instead of feeling shiok lah kan, i feel bloody exhausted (oh and guilty). the body works in mysterious ways. but in actually fact, i really am terribly exhausted. been out today from eleven in the morning and only got back slightly after midnight. it was a good day, more to come when ive got my pictures ready, but now, its time for retribution *groan.

ergh. *groan groan groan and groan some more*.... *groan a bit more*

oh and for the record, my head is throbbing so badly that i swear im breathing through my temples.


oh and today is monday, so i guess tomorrow must be tuesday. oh crappadudadu.

you arent that pretty anyway. bah.

i am nadi; :] at 3:51 AM


ok, too much memories from this blog and moving just, doesn't seem right (ok i know, whatever). so i guess i'll be living under 2 roofs then ;) for now that is.

here's a little bit of sem 1, nafa. as angry as i am at the fucked up marking system, we had our fun ;)
look out for my name!

*photos courtesy of wan, sorry man. too lazy to upload my own lah ;)

and heres what came after; fooseball destress!

now 5 months till graduation.

i am nadi; :] at 1:35 AM


Saturday, October 14, 2006

moving sure is tiring. but im liking the new space quite a bit. slowly. :)

i miss you already.

i am nadi; :] at 6:17 AM


im moving. goodbye.

i am nadi; :] at 3:09 AM


It was probably always there, hidden away somewhere. But when the time comes it silently rushes out, chilling every cell in your body. You drown in that cruel flood, gasping for breath. You cling to a vent near the ceiling, struggling, but the air you manage to breathe is dry and burns your throat. Water and thirst, cold and heat - these supposedly opposite elements combine to assault you.

The world is a huge space, but the space that will take you in, and it doesnt have to be very big, is nowhere to be found. You seek a voice, but what do you get? Silence. You look for silence, but guess what? All you hear over and over and over is the voice of this omen. And sometimes this prophetic voice pushes a secret switch hidden deep inside your brain.

Your heart is like a great river after a long spell of rain, spilling over its banks. All signposts that once stood on the ground are gone, inundated and carried away by that rush of water. And still the rain beats down on the surface of the river. Everytime you see a flood like that on the news you tell yourself, thats it. Thats my heart.

i am nadi; :] at 2:54 AM


Friday, October 13, 2006

fuck nafa lah. seriously. fuck you.

i am nadi; :] at 1:55 PM


Thursday, October 12, 2006

fuck. that's it. im officially gonna, i dont know, drop dead and die. i cant even find the right words. i cant find one of the most important projects that i did for my final. submission is over yes, but now they need the softcopy, and i fucking cant find it. its nowhwere to be found in my system, oh and the best part, i think the images and fonts got sucked along with it into the bermuda. so im at square zilch, with nothing for me to work on to at least recreate it. im so fucking fucked. and i only realise this now, when i need it to be done in like 8 hours. no seriously, where the fuck is it. what the hell did i do.

i am nadi; :] at 3:44 AM


Wednesday, October 11, 2006

you've turned me into a monster.

sigh, im done with tree hill.

now what?

i am nadi; :] at 4:11 PM


Sunday, October 08, 2006

in my adolesence, ive told myself that life is a lie. you create whatever that goes around you to your liking, sometimes it fails, disaster strikes, and thats when you stop seeing the purpose of life. i was shit then. i failed my parents, my family, i loved my best friend (erm yah, and i mean love, loved. and best friend was a she.), got into a whole load of trouble for that, i hated school, skipped classes, failed tests, exams, and along the way, picked up a few bad habits why not - smoking, drinking, fighting (ok no, i was in the bleachers haha), running away from home, lying, the usual stuff.

now, a little more growned up (ok maybe a lot to those who practically grew up with me), ive learned that life really aint all about yourself. you gotta accomodate to the people around you, live with them, sometimes even live for them, then maybe you'll get the feeling of what life really is about. ive made a lot of mistakes in the past which till now, i dont regret. in fact theyve thought me to become a much better person with more purpose in living. im loving my family more and myself less (thats a good thing seriously), i go to school no matter how much of a drag it is, work hard and pray to excel, ok i still love my best friend, but much differently from the one last time - but what the hell, i still dig girls, i still smoke - hey, its become a part of me, not just a habit ok, so its different. ok fine, i still drink occassionally, the fighting, lying, running away thing, that was so high school.

ok if you compare this with the list above, nothing much has changed has it. damn. but thats not what matters i guess. what actually matters is that ive growned up to be a lot more responsible than i used to be and a lot less foolish. ive had some help along the way, my family, my sofi especially who's always always always always been there whenever hell broke loose for me, my closest and bestest friends whos been with me since forever - dee and perks, and at one point, su and k, and more recently herwin. i look back and think now that i couldnt have done it without these people. i did it myself, but i think i did it mostly FOR these people. because i knew how much they cared for me and how disappointing it wil be if i failed them.

ok enough emo. one tree hill got me feeling all sappy. i think i need to go for my tete-a-tete sessions with sel and chups. cmon guys, be free be free! now im free! come meet me! i need a lil feelin good!

ok whatever, bye.

i am nadi; :] at 3:30 PM


Saturday, October 07, 2006

little buddha

my little burm burm redhaaadhaaaaa minye minyee so tomok wth al his kertak kertak and mamasham cellulite. you need to puasa and lose weight. gerammmammmmamam nfjf erioj wefj fwjqieojfwe.

oh and if youre wondering abt the annoying voice in the background singing twinkle winkle in makcik malay, stop. dont wonder or guess anymore, i shall admit to my closet liking in makcikism. it is mua.

*runs behind closet and hides.

"they made me do it!!!"

i am nadi; :] at 9:04 PM


Friday, October 06, 2006

minah tudung

herwin, this is for you ;)

i am nadi; :] at 1:03 AM


Wednesday, October 04, 2006

i dont like to be kept in the dark.

especially by you. i think i know you to well.

i am nadi; :] at 12:52 AM


Sunday, October 01, 2006

you are, the epitome of what i call, an enjoyable loser. apart from your benighted ignorance towards religion, your witless persona does you and your wide, uncultivated brown ass no simple justice to the better world. i, am the better world. for them who knows you and i, they will not hesitate to agree my first statement came from the influence of your repulsive mouth. after such intimate acquaintance, you chose to forego the mindfull respect of a fellow being, and head on with the moronic imbecile of your uncivilised behaviour, oblivious to the emotions surrounding you, only to allow me through the last laugh. i think you should save yourself the embarassment from your fellow self and run along to get a better taste of the better life i once taught you. a curse will get you nowhere hon. dont humiliate yourself so shallowly. grow fucking up.

anywho, its ramadhan and i shall try not too get so worked up over such losers.


so dinner and buka at sofra was nice. i was stuffed to the brim while rest rest could still devour thee pizzas, soups, ice cream, chips, yada yada that came after. okay, i had a small amount of the after food, but that became a bit too much for me to handle. i fell flat with my eyes wide shut on the sofa. the duvet that lay above me was orgasmic and it was sheer comfort at first sight. oh swissotel does wonders to your body. oh and a happy twenty first to mr isk. happy happy.

some pictures were taken but they were bad, so im just gonna wait for isk to pass me his share of the photos.

this whole taking bad pictures thing has gotta end. i think i need a new digi.

i am nadi; :] at 1:05 AM